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In Need of Distractions Breaking someone�s heart, hurts both. When taking a risk for love, there are no winners when it ends like this. Last night, I broke-up with the girl and I felt so miserable for doing so because I could see the pain in her eyes. I didn�t want her to hurt. I didn�t want her to feel bad about herself either. She really is a nice person but I just didn�t feel love between us. How could I console her? Upon the realization, she wanted to be rid of me and ran through the house and threw the Christmas and birthday gift in a bag and told me to take them. I didn�t want them. "If it makes you feel better, you could burn them or throw them out." I turned to walk out the door and muttered a barely audible and shakey, �I�m sorry.� I went to my local watering hole to drink my �shmuckness� away. She called me on the cell and stated something to the effect of �...I will fight for you...� With these words, I had to drink more because I thought I should have ended it awhile back upon her revelation but pursuing her seemed worth the risk at the time. Unfortunately, I think her condition held me back from loving her. I really don�t feel good about myself this morning. I need distractions. Lot�s of distractions. Here we go again... - 10-06-10fuck you. - 07-02-08 A new blog - 04-13-08 New site: The Running Bob - 03-16-08 Tax Man Encourages Hobbies? - 03-11-08 ,060116_6.html,In Need of Distractions,01-17-05> |