Stream of Conscious
05-12-06, 11:29 AM

Stream of Conscious:

I�m drastically underpaid�drastically. I need to do well on the interview or march into his office and lay it all out with facts, figures and accomplishments. Reading the recent salary survey didn�t help my mood but I already knew I was under paid.

Desiring a car and paying bills plays heavy on this issue.

Visited my dad at the nursing home and told him I�ll take him out to dinner but I have a few errands to run first such as picking-up my auto with newly installed tires. Then, I�ll have the arduous task of loading him into the handicap accessible van and finding a suitable restaurant. Yes, it is a generous offer but the event is draining. I hope he doesn�t act-up or do something off the wall.

I can�t wait for lunch because the �girl� is treating me to sushi this afternoon! Man, oh man, do I love sushi! After the movie tonight, she�ll probably want me to stay over �sometimes you look forward to �action� but other times sleeping is better�I wonder if this is part of the declining sexual desire yeas or my feelings towards her?

But damn! I think it has to do just with non-commitment sexual desires. Why do you write that? Well, there is the attraction to on-line porn, beautiful women and thoughts of that I�m missing out on the others. Sometimes, I wish the sex didn�t play such an important role�but then again, who am I kidding?

(Sips coffee) I�m wired� switched to regular coffee today.

I�m proud that I awoke at five a.m. on my own then went to the park to run a very fast pace three miles � probably under 7 minutes each. Trying out a new training approach to work on speed in the morning. We�ll see how long this lasts.

Still curious as to what happened to my old girlfriends and what they�re up to with their lives. They must have married as Google is not revealing any results.

This office is killing me� I need something to occupy my mind. Seek a different field? I saw an ad for single males for auditions in Kentucky for porn movies�yea, that will help the job search and your credibility�but PORN STAR! (sips coffee) Jackass.

(scratches finger) Wonder if anyone posted any new entries? Swear to god, if it weren�t for blogs my day would suck�all this internet access is what keeps me coming back to this job. Maybe, my pay is fine for the minimal work I do around here?

My tan is coming along� $38 for unlimited tanning. I used to laugh at the tanning salons but now I�m beginning to like it. Was a little jealous of the �Tanning Consultants� tan. She was cute�they�re all cute when they have deep tans like that. Maybe that is the new career�tanning consultant! Who was the movie star? Hamilton?? George Hamilton�make note, ask him for advice. (sips coffee)

Way to buzzed on caffeine�luke warm now.

I like how my fingers dance across the keyboard in harmony with my thoughts. Sue�what is she doing? I wonder if she is still working for ABC or left New York? She never called back after her panic 9/11 call.

Dating a 25 year old�naaaa�someone 29 to 34�with a tan� and thin� Summer tan and on a boat�new goal.

That about covers it for now�

I hope my car sells quickly� I really want that Mini Cooper� envisioning the drive to Chicago with the �girl� in October for the marathon then hitting the local caf�s.

Tanned girls�nice. Sun tan lotion smell�

I need a raise�. Let it go.

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